Why, Oh, Why!?!?

Why do we not have a license to have a child?

We have a license to drive.
We have a license to get married.
But, as of yet, just ole anyone can have a kid.

I can't tell you how many news stories I've been subjected to of children who've been beaten, tortured, maimed, abused, and then, mercifully (if you believe in God) killed.

What

The

Fuck

Of all the things that should have a test, a modicum of consideration. Even when you apply for a marriage license (at least in NYC) you have to wait 24 hours. I'm all for reproductive rights. A woman should have the final say in how her body is used. But if she's not making a proactive choice (different from a procreative choice), I mean, god damn it, I'd make a better mother than most people, but I wouldn't make the mother that I WANT to be, and so that's why I don't (aside from not having health insurance since 2000). Doesn't anyone get that having babies means bringing totally innocent, unscathed people into this hell that we deal with every day? I cringe at the thought of the world that children now inhabit.

There should be a license. It's not fair. To society.

To them.

Catching up with...

I haven't posted in ages. Good news, I'm working my ass off. Bad news, I'm working my ass off.

It recently occurred to me that I don't believe in God. The non-belief has been on for years, but the ramifications of it only occurred to me about a month or two ago.

This means that when I die, that's it. I cease to exist. Period. No consciousness aware of it, no heaven, no hell, no nothing. Complete erasure.

I find this absofuckinglutely intolerable. Why the fuck are we trying to fix races or the economy or the price of grain in Uzbekistan? Why aren't we, as a human race, trying to find a way to fix life?

More to come on this topic, as I freak out about it more and more. And don't try to sell me religion - been there, done that, and believe me... I WISH I could believe.